Funny The Way It is

Meaningless sex is good sex.

erinkane8 — Tue, 05 Mar 2013 23:37:24 -0500

What the fuck am I even doing with my life.

erinkane8 — Tue, 05 Mar 2013 23:32:34 -0500

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erinkane8 — Mon, 03 Sep 2012 13:25:55 -0400

fr0m-the-t0wers: tired-of—life: soft grunge ✟

erinkane8 — Thu, 23 Aug 2012 09:10:22 -0400

fr0m-the-t0wers:

tired-of—life:

soft grunge ✟

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erinkane8 — Thu, 23 Aug 2012 09:09:49 -0400

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erinkane8 — Thu, 23 Aug 2012 09:08:51 -0400

I can not even handle the level of dickhead this kid is… If you don’t care about me or...

erinkane8 — Thu, 23 Aug 2012 09:08:31 -0400

I can not even handle the level of dickhead this kid is… If you don’t care about me or my feelings stop being an asshole and saying you do, just walk the fuck away..

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erinkane8 — Thu, 16 Aug 2012 23:31:07 -0400

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erinkane8 — Thu, 16 Aug 2012 23:30:49 -0400

August 13, 2012

erinkane8 — Mon, 13 Aug 2012 09:42:22 -0400

The day the love was no longer enough to make me stay.

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erinkane8 — Mon, 13 Aug 2012 09:41:28 -0400

So over it. I get lied to, and then you’re mad at me that i was pissed at you. Also it’s...

erinkane8 — Mon, 13 Aug 2012 09:39:57 -0400

So over it. I get lied to, and then you’re mad at me that i was pissed at you. Also it’s my fault I don’t trust you, because I’m too insecure. but you know the fact that you lie to me once a week has nothing to do with it..

You have the nerve to slap me across the face in public, and then I’m the bad guy for bringing it up again.

Your phone number is deleted, your twitter blocked, your instagram blocked.. Time to move on, this broken love is going nowhere.

Tonight, I’m really fucking pissed and laying in bed thinking, is not making things any...

erinkane8 — Sun, 12 Aug 2012 23:19:25 -0400

Tonight, I’m really fucking pissed and laying in bed thinking, is not making things any better.

Day 3:

erinkane8 — Wed, 01 Aug 2012 01:13:41 -0400

“No offense but I can’t be with you because I can’t go through another year of you being at college and having to worry about you.”

Yup, everybody that’s what he said. To me it basically feels like I’m being told I’m not worth it. I can’t even say anything else about the day, because I feel to shitty.

Just A Thought.

erinkane8 — Tue, 31 Jul 2012 19:28:00 -0400

It’d be easy to accidentally take to many pills, it’d be easy to run the car off the road into a telephone poll, it’d be easy to end the pain.

It’s hard to live through the pain, and it’s hard to deal with the heartbreak, and it’s hard to handle the emptiness that is taking over my insides. But it’s living though this pain, that will make me stronger, more resilient, and in the end a better person.

So as hard as living is right now, I refuse to give in to the demons within telling me to take the easy way out. I will not give in.

Because I believe that it will get better.

Day 2:

erinkane8 — Mon, 30 Jul 2012 23:23:11 -0400

Today started off so rocky, I woke up at 2:30 in the morning and then couldn’t fall back asleep. So when I had to goto chemistry at 7, I was like a walking zombie. It’s hard not to think about him and what I lost, so hard that a couple times throughout the day I got really choked up.

But then I went to wawa before work and the cashier complimented me several times, it was something so small but her kind comments were enough to put a smile, on my face for the first time all day. The slightly good mood, mixed with a 20 oz cup of coffee was just enough to make work good! It’s weird not having anyone to talk to throughout the day but I honestly am to attached to my phone so having no one to constantly talk to, will ultimately be good for me.

Also while I was at work I was scrolling through instagram and saw the comment on someones picture said “you only live once, but if you do it right thats enough” and for whatever reason it really resonated with me. Life is so precious, and not to be taken for granted I’m so hurt right now but it doesn’t mean I have to be miserable. So for now I’m focused on staying busy, positive and happy!

Now for the hardest part of the day though, falling asleep..

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erinkane8 — Mon, 30 Jul 2012 13:45:46 -0400

Day 1:

erinkane8 — Sun, 29 Jul 2012 22:37:11 -0400

So Friday I get asked out, Saturday the “asking out” gets revoked, Sunday we’re done for good (maybe).

Oh life, you are far from simple.

But as I sit here, in bed, I feel surprisingly content. I was able to go out tonight to the movies and temporarily take my mind off things (well kinda). And the decision I’ve made is that things might really be over, and I might be crazy for still sending the occasional text message telling you I love you. But for some odd reason, it feels like I’m doing the right thing. I couldn’t live with myself knowing that I gave up on someone that I loved. Right now he might not like me and he may not even know if he loves me, but somewhere deep down inside of me I feel confident that this is meant to be. So for now I will try and I will fight in the best way I can think of. I’ll give him his space, cut down on the amount that I text him and refrain from calling him at all. But I’m still gonna text him everyday so he doesn’t forget that he’s on my mind and that I love him. And this all might be crazy, and I’ll probably be ignored every single day for God knows how long, but I think this is what I need to do. Give him the time he has asked for and maybe he’ll come out of this realizing that we are meant to be. So I believe i’m in for a long emotional few months, but I know is God is with me, giving me the strength to stay strong and fight for the love of my life.

On a real note though fuck my life…. I can just never win.

erinkane8 — Sat, 28 Jul 2012 11:59:17 -0400

On a real note though fuck my life…. I can just never win.

Is it weird to say that I’m scared for the day that I stop being a coward?

erinkane8 — Wed, 25 Jul 2012 14:37:35 -0400

Is it weird to say that I’m scared for the day that I stop being a coward?